I feel jumbled.

Brandon has been gone all weekend. My emotions have been up and down. My thoughts are not linear (but that’s normal). Nothing seems “regular”.

The past week has been chock-full of negative attitudes, exhaustion, frustration and fear. We are nearing exam time at school and stress levels are inevitably on the rise for everyone.

The upcoming week is slammed with work for Brandon (he will be finished with his masters in a few DAYS!) and I find myself holding my breath when I think about the craziness it could entail.

But it is okay. There is hope.

In Deuteronomy 8, the Lord reminds His people of how He has taken care of them and what He has promised them.

Remember the whole way that the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness…your clothing did not wear out on you and your foot did not swell. For the Lord your God is bringing you into a good land, a land of brooks of water, of fountains and springs, flowing out in the valleys and hills, a land of wheat and barley, of vines and fig trees and pomegranates, a land of olive trees and honey, a land in which you will eat bread without scarcity, in which you will lack nothing…and you shall eat and be full, and you shall bless the Lord your God for the good land he has given you. (Dt . 8:2-4)

This morning, I was (way) out of my comfort zone teaching the elementary class at church. In the middle of the chaos that is story time, I asked the kids, “What is the name of the Promise Land?” One girl responded quickly, “Heaven.” And for a split second, it took my breath away. YES. Yes, yes, yes, yes, YES.

We deserved death. Instead, because of Jesus’s blood, we get life. We get God. And we get Him forever.

Today might feel jumbled. This whole week may be chaos. But there are two things I know. 1. God is faithful. 2. I am His.

Jesus, despite the craziness, let my week be filled with joy because I have You.